I miss you !!!

I got no one to turn to, nor anyone to cry to, i shall whine here.
If you cant stand a guy whining, get the F out of here
Guys are not suppose to be Emo i know but i cant help

Expectations leads to Disappointment
No disappointment without expectation
I will not expect anything from everything from now on
Everything is like bubble, so fragile, burst before it manage to rise up to the sky

friendship, studies, ambition, everything
Maybe everything is fake, they look nice at the surface but deceitful in depth
Things just dont appreciate me as i do

Maybe, or because i am not important afterall
my weakness of not saying NO TO THEM!!
I give in 100%, i get nil in return nevemind, i get negatives!

Maybe from now on i will learn to use the word REJECT in my life, when there is only 1 request for me to answer yes and million reasons for me to say NO!

I'm dumb i admit , thank you for those who made me look dumber !

One thing i felt good about it is, many great thinker, great people, even our lord Jesus, were once rejected, denied and regarded as fool.

No more Mr.Nice.Guy
I so super dumb, i want to stop being a dumbass !
Who is smart enough to enlighten me? heh :P

Past Present Future...

We are unaware of something when we do it

When something is recorded in the history, then only realisation of the consequences strikes us

Remain unchanged forever

The rule says, nobody can change history, a fact that has taken place in the past

However, rules are all subjected to exceptions

For today, yesterday became history, and tomorrow is a mystery
Today is present, though yesterday became history

I cant change history , but I can create history
Let the history i created override the previous
Give me a chance in future, to modify my history

ACCA...II

I THOUGHT,
I stepped into the new semester..
Facing unknown challenges awaited me
I see unfamilliar faces all around, not you..
The class is so big and i lost in the crowd..
Is time to leave the past behind, erase the bad and unconstructive memories
Keep the good ones, revise the useful ones, setting new standards for a good start
Free my mind to welcome all kind of trials
Bring it on!!!
... ......

i invited myself to this challenge, i accepted it, and now i feel like backing out.
i am not excited anymore...
something's missing, not fun without .o.