I dont know

When good things come , they come in bulk
When good things go, they go at once
it is not the first time to be on the peak, and then fall down the cliff
it is not the first time when u realise u are about to get everything, when u lose all a second ago
but it is the first time, i come across selfishness.
A self centred mindset that wants all the good for himself, and manipulates others
I don't know what am I talking about, and i don't care
I don't curse, but i bless
blessed is he who craves for wealth, may he be granted all the wealth on earth
blessed is he who is selfish, may he be given all things to himself
blessed is he who is childish, may he stays young and thinks like a 3 year old forever
blessed is he who is greedy, may he gets everything he wants
but blessed for those who are generous and humble, may happiness finds no one but them

maybe study stress or what, i dont know
sleepless nights, falling asleep in classes ,waking up late for tutorials, i dont know
working hard to maintain or get a click, i dont know
trying to preserve good things that is about to go, i dont know
what i know is.when u gain the whole world, you will lose yourself

so simple

A sudden realization.
A sudden jerk back to reality.
I've been making empty promises to myself.
I said I'll study.
I said I'm motivated,
But am I really?

I want to produce results,
But I don't put effort in.
I want to study,
But laziness set itself in.

So much has been said.
So much to be done.
So much to revise.
So little time.

What do I really want.
What am I supposed to do?

I want motivation.
I need motivation.
I feed on motivation.
I thrive on motivation.

With all those attention,
So much expectations.
I came into realization,
No more procrastination.
And now where's motivation?